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sometimes i really wonder if it was wrong of me to come...
am i being very selfish to want to study so much?
so long?
and so far away from home?
i had a stable job... my own income... family & friends around me...
no rent to pay... no tuition fees to worry about...
i could go out to the office every morning, return home in the evening to home-cooked hot dinner...
i could potter around the house on weekends slacking away...
i should be helping out mum at home with the housework, the washing, the groceries and what-nots...
i should be helping bring Claire to childcare before work and picking her up when jie can't make it...
i should (and would!) gladly babysit the kids and do my part to keep them company when i have to and take care of them when one of them falls ill...
whatever it is, i should be helping around at home.... should i not?

instead, all i can do now is listen to Claire cry over the phone when she's sick and needs attention...... :(

am i selfish for wanting to come so far away from home to finish this Postgrad program?

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Claire Claire 阿姨好想你 :(