empty.

that's exactly how i feel now.
maybe cos it's only the second time since we started going out, that he has gone away for work.
im still so not very used to this being apart thingy... which is weird though... cos the last r/s was all about being apart. for three freaking years!!! *roll eyes
but neways, 'nuff about the last one. im MOVING ON!!!
so... yea... second time he has gone off to work... his going away to work means no calls and no texts since he's out there on intl waters and stuff... no reception wtf! if the email doesn't work??? that's it wtf!!
think the first time he left for work, it didn't really register in my head cos we both left from the same airport on the same day, almost at the same time... that time it felt more like we were leaving on holiday or sth =P although, 2 days later it no longer felt that way, that's for sure! omg that trip took him away for a good 20sth days!! this time also lidat how??? can only pray the upcoming SYD trip takes my mind off this emptiness that is him being away :(((
argh! wtfwtfwtfwtf! im just rambling on here... duno what im thinking... what im typing...... not in the mood for anything...... wtf i wana go home and crawl into bed in comfy oversized pjs and hug the teddy and think of him till i fall asleep or sth...........
:(