...

i feel awfully confused...
worried...
a tad bit scared even!

*should i be?

for the 1st time,
i saw a side of people i never knew was there...
friends i knew all this while as

• warm
• friendly
• gentle
• awfully sweet

someone who

• never yelled
• never raise their voice
• always offered tender words of love and care
• always spoke lovingly of people around them

i saw friends lose temper yday...
yea... for the 1st time...

and it was scary for me at least...
bcos like wat i described above,
they are people as such...

but yday, i saw them differently.

or maybe i shouldn't be saying such things...
maybe i should be trying to understd why tempers were lost,
why harsh words were said...
why voices were raised......
perhaps im juz finding it hard to accept tt even the sweetest people hv tempers?
tt when provoked,
even the most friendly and easy-going people lose their cool?

maybe im reading too much into this,
but last night's incident kept me up all night thinking,
would said friends oneday raise their voice at me??

lose their temper with me?
instead of seeing me and smiling in greeting, turn away in frown?

i don't think i'll be able to take tt...
i've never been able to take it when my friendships/ relationships turned sour...

im rambling on...
im not making sense i know...
im confused...
worried...
a tad bit scared...

*should i be???