some days, i come away from our meetings very upset.
upset because i know you are not happy.
you may not be UNhappy.
but you are certainly NOT happy either.
and i'm upset because i love you and want you to be happy!
yet i can't seem to be of any help!!
some days i just feel absolutely tired of trying to be happy for BOTH of us.
:(
today was one of those days......
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gone is the bubbly, cheerful girl i met some 8 years ago @ IDP's office.
infact, that girl i met disappeared sometime that same year we first met!!!
in her place?
the you NOW.
sure we have fun together somedays.
we laugh together. cry together. bitch like mad. get our BBT-fix together on Sunday arvo's. shop. eat. watch concerts/movies. exchange K DVDs/mags/books. get our nails done.
the ex-bfs. the family dramas. the work-shite.
we've been through them together.
BUT...!
there are those days when you're just listless. tired. spaced-out. sad. depressed......
and nothing i say or do seems to make you feel better!
:(
i love you girl.
you are one of the luckiest, luckiest, LUCKIEST amongst all my girlfriends.
you really are!
sure we complain about our families but hey! who doesn't?! but your folks love you. your sis does too i'm sure.
financially, you have nothing to worry about. got a (huge) roof over your head... food on the table...
cash. card. car.
annual holidays PAID FOR!
job.
friends (like ME!!! who is there for you ANYTIME you call.).
......
i really, really hope you realise this soon.
and am happy.
happy and thankful.
sigh.