...tO sHaRe yoUr aChes

i wish i were there....
i really wish i were...
i wish i cud fly to your side now...
i really wish i cud b wiv u to share ur pain....

=(

oNe of thOSe dayz....

think i wokeup on the wrong side of bed...
real cranky, real moody tdy...

"你早上打给我时，
我的口气不太好对吧？
对不起..."

"你的短讯我收到，
但没有心情回你..."

"i see your missed call...
and i get irritated by the fact tt if i answered tt, i'll hv to arrange to mit for proj discussion...
so i leave the phone to continue ringing...
refusing to answer..."

"i got the mail and attached assignment...
i know you did your part,
but cos im just not in the mood to read thru the thousands of words you've written, i refuse to read and comment on your work"

think my lousy mood this morning wud hv really offended people ard me if i had been outside...
thank God i stuck ard at home alone...

i managed to get all my HKTB marketing plan referencing done before i started stoning in front of my lappie...
just cudn't continue wiv the report...

went to FF at noon...
but i think bcos of my lousy mood tdy,
even the session din go well...

cudn't go the full 10km tdy!
did only 8km...
then i stopped...
it just din feel fun tdy...
how sad is tt!!!

now im bck home...
stoning...

mayb Bible Study tonite will make me feel better...

just having one of those damn lousy days i guess......

...

i feel awfully confused...
worried...
a tad bit scared even!

*should i be?

for the 1st time,
i saw a side of people i never knew was there...
friends i knew all this while as

• warm
• friendly
• gentle
• awfully sweet

someone who

• never yelled
• never raise their voice
• always offered tender words of love and care
• always spoke lovingly of people around them

i saw friends lose temper yday...
yea... for the 1st time...

and it was scary for me at least...
bcos like wat i described above,
they are people as such...

but yday, i saw them differently.

or maybe i shouldn't be saying such things...
maybe i should be trying to understd why tempers were lost,
why harsh words were said...
why voices were raised......
perhaps im juz finding it hard to accept tt even the sweetest people hv tempers?
tt when provoked,
even the most friendly and easy-going people lose their cool?

maybe im reading too much into this,
but last night's incident kept me up all night thinking,
would said friends oneday raise their voice at me??

lose their temper with me?
instead of seeing me and smiling in greeting, turn away in frown?

i don't think i'll be able to take tt...
i've never been able to take it when my friendships/ relationships turned sour...

im rambling on...
im not making sense i know...
im confused...
worried...
a tad bit scared...

*should i be???

sOme ppL juSt dUn get it...

SOME ppl have been trying to get me on MSN these past weeks...
they send 'nudges'...
they leave messages...
even when its clearly reflected on tt teeny 'lil MSN window tt i'm "away"...
or "busy"...
these ppl still 'nudge'...
leave messages...
DUH!

sometimes i see those flashing things telling me i've got incoming messages...
i ignore them cos...
I AM "BUSY" goddamnit!
sometimes i get the messages only after i come bck to my room...
i cnt b bothered to reply...
cos honestly?
those messages came when i was "away" so it dun matter no more yea?
other times...
i just cnt be bothered to reply these ppl...
cos...
本小姐 just DUN WANNA TALK TO THESE "SOME PPL"!!!

and these ppl i tell ya...
duno whether they just plain dumb, or dumb... HA!
they keep messaging everytime loh!
walau eh...
if you left messages for someone, and never get response...
won't you know (or at least suspect) tt they dun wanna talk to you??
DUH!!!!
some ppl just dun get it loh!!! DUH!!!!!!!!!!

吃醋

是不是当我们太喜欢， 太在乎某个人时，
我们都会开始小吃醋哩？
当你看到他/她跟某个人好，亲密时，
当你看到他/她跟别人吃饭，打游戏，温习功课，
...
明明是小事，但就因为喜欢，在乎，
所以都会吃醋？？

God gaVe uS twO eaRs to ListeN......

Proverbs 15:31-32

The ear that listens to life-giving reproof

will dwell among the wise.

Whoever ignores instruction despises himself,

but he who listens to reproof gains intelligence.

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i pray i've been a better & supportive listener to my family & friends,

especially when they had been in need of a listening ear...

rather than ignore or turn a deaf ear on them.

i pray i've been open to advice when given,

and had not been stubborn or too proud to accept other opinions...

gosh! i do pray to be a better listener to others and not to myself!!!

depResSed

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*mega sigh*
i like, SO fucked up on tt mid term paper = =

Why i Luv 'eLin

♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
Shan
'Lil tWin StaR says:
OMG
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heeheehee
'Lil tWin StaR says:
tt display pic is SO CUTE
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I tot u sayin yrself.....
'Lil tWin StaR says:
*sarcastic* i was
'Lil tWin StaR says:
lol
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
u cut yr fringe?
'Lil tWin StaR says:
no
'Lil tWin StaR says:
it GREW!!!
'Lil tWin StaR says:
><
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ha u kuku
'Lil tWin StaR says:
btw
'Lil tWin StaR says:
wats SHAN??
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
mountain.
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
SHan Hu Hai, not San HU Hai
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
Why u went to chg Jay CHou's songgg!!!!!!
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
mY idol !!
'Lil tWin StaR says:
well xcUse moi!
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
lol
'Lil tWin StaR says:
fyi
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the mp3 was saved as sAn
'Lil tWin StaRsays:
so
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
u can chg it! u toot toot
'Lil tWin StaR says:
ain't my faUlt
'Lil tWin StaR says:
疯了
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
lol
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
u crazy girl
'Lil tWin StaR says:
yea i m
'Lil tWin StaR says:
but U lUv mi neways
'Lil tWin StaR says:
lol
♫ ₫ewdrσp ™ ~ Gimme back my Saturday says:
hah
'Lil tWin StaR says:
i'll taKe tt as a YES OF COS I LUV YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
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LOL
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OF cos u dodo birD
'Lil tWin StaR says:
waHahaHA

**msn conversation taking place while putting up tis blog**

vaReKai iN sYd

so so SO happy i went to catch Varekai...
ABSOLUTELY FAB!
maybe not as fab as Saltimbanco -- i still tink tt was lyk, their best production out of the 4 tt went to SG ovr the past few yrs... but yea, Varekai was pretty fab too! hee!!

*paid AUD89... VIP section seats k?! section 102!!!

fellow Cirque peeps will noe wat im toking abt... damn good seats lo! so so SO happy!!!

*the all too familiar sight of The (blue/yellow) Grand Chapiteau!!

Cirquadors! are you missing our days at Quidam last year???

*these are for my peeps frm F&B and Merchandise ---

don't you guys just miss working in the Concession Tents ??? ha!

*for my fellow Ushers -- the setting for Varekai inside the Big Top!!!

i was super 乖 ok! i never took any pics when the show start hor..... mi cares for the artiste safety hor.... =P

*last look at The Grand Chapiteau at nite ---

i so lurve being part of Cirque... as a Cirquador at work or being part of the audience!

I MISS CIRQUE!!!

**note to Varekai peeps (if you read tis) ---

please please PLEASE bring Varekai to SG only AFTER i go back to SG nxt year end ok!!! i wana work wiv Cirque again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

***for those of you who DO NOT KNOW ABOUT CIRQUE ---

WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CIRQUE DU SOLEIL

for more info on the fab show i just caught, please see ---

VAREKAI

tHis oNe's for 'LinG

This week's purchases

*VERY contented smile*

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not thinking about how much i actually spent

= =

wat do think 'Ling?

God iS heRe

~~GOD IS HERE~~

Why do you stare at the skies up above

while your hearts are broken and looking for love?

Don't get lost in the things of the past

but believe in the promise of a truth that will last.

Why do you dwell on what's happen'd before?

Release all that burdens you; open the door.

The future we reach t'ward is not found in the sky,

for the reign of God's glory will never die!

Here in this place, with the gifts that we bring,

the Body of Christ is found our reason to sing!

In our coming and going, in ev'ry day,

God's presence is stirring here proclaiming the way!

With our strengths and our talents,

in our weakness and fear;

in joy and in sorrow, God's healing is near.

In growth and in faith, in the darkness of sin,

a new hope is present here where love can begin!

The church that we ache for can be found in this place,

in our working for justice; in the presence of grace.

For we are God's people all holy and strong,

to serve is our mission, with Christ as our song!

Why do you seek the living among the dead?

Jesus is risen, friends, just as he said.

All things are made new, true to God's Word;

it's beginning right here, right now, haven't you heard?

God is here, God is here!

One thing i know,

God is here!

God is here, God is here!

One thing i know,

God is here!

wHen i See sOmeoNe eLSe haPPY...

... i feel happy tOO!!!

don't you?

when you see people full of smiles and happy, don't you feel like smiling too?

i do....

its a good feeling you know? seeing people around you happy...

on the bus ride home this evening, a woman got onto the bus and sat opposite me.

she had a huge box - one of those cake boxes from the confectionary...

the minute she sat down she opened up the box, looked at wateva was inside, and started smiling this HUGE goofy grin =)

then she picked up her mobile and began text messaging, all the while this HUGE smile on her face.

then as if she realize she was being watched, she wiped the grin off her face and tried to look serious.

but the next minute, she just started smiling again.

you could just tell she was really happy...

i couldn't help smiling to myself too.....

i shut my eyes so she wouldn't know i was looking at her.

then her mobile rang.

she answered.

and you could HEAR the happiness in her voice!

^^

wateva the reason for her happiness, just the fact tt this stranger sitting opposite me on the bus, full of smiles and happiness, made me feel happy watching her too....

it just felt good you know?

yea.... i like being around cheerful, happy people....

makes me feel like my life's so much more.... happy!

*i'm so happy rite now i can't seem to think of any other expressions besides 'happy'. haha! i think i'm beginning to type nonsense =)

-end-

nOise pOLLutioN!!! arGh!!!!

there goes my good intentions to continue wiv my marketing plan for HKTB!!!
there's an awful lot of drilling gg on in the unit upstairs and the plumber and electrician running in and out of the unit above and into ours..... apparently some pipe burst upstairs and water is leaking past our unit, and into the garage below.... onto some electrical stuff!!! ARGH!!!
just image me, in my HUGE OVERSIZED cutesy-cartoon-character pyjamas, answering the door when the bell rang at 9:30am, to find towering ang-mohs standing there gg "sorry luv, but this is an emergency.... there's water dripping onto electrical stuff below and we need to fix it rightaway or it could catch fire!!........." and brushed past me and into the bathroom while i just stood there, really blur, trying to register wat was happening, THEN gg.... "oh"................... ==
so neways, here i m, in my 'lil room.... blasting F.I.R. on my lappie, but its NO FIGHT compared to the drilling upstairs of cos! ugh! tried to read a journal for the marketing plan - the Sustainable Tourism Development part - but i cnt concentrate lah! how to??? aiyo!!!!!!!!
and i just went to peek into the bathroom......... OMG! wat a mess!!! their tools all in there, tiles have been loosen, abit of hacking gg on... argh! OMG i just realize sth! how m i suppose to use the bathroom wiv all these work gg on?? the men say its gg to take quite a while!!!!!!! i have to use the toooooolet! NOW!!!!!!!!! arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

karaOke || diNNer || dRinKs

this week in short:-
finished my mid-term assessments on Mon nite
made slight progress wiv the BCEP grp on the HIH case on Tues
went K wiv Teresa & Ning Jen late Tues nite
made more progress wiv the marketing plan for HKTB on Wed
had a good workout Thurs morn at FF
fab dinner, drinks and company Thurs nite in the City
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*wiv Jen and Teresa at GreenBox

tt nite was like a Mando-pop vs. Canto-pop session

in the 3 hours, the singers tt appeared MOST on our telly screen were 梁静茹, A*mei, Joey Yung...

*isn't 方力申 cute? heeee!

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*Frances, Jes, Daniel, myself and Adam at Musashi

*sashimi, teppanyaki, sushi, sake.... fab!!! came out to be about $20 each... quite worth i think...我吃得很饱好不好..... 所以$20算很ok咯 =P

had drinks at WildFire after makan... too dark for nice pics..... make do wiv these..... Daniel looks quite murderous eh? 很凶咯.... He claims he always looks kinda like tis after drinks.. haha!

*the Opera House looks pretty at nite huh?

tHe SouNd of MuSic

was watching telly while i ate just now.... they were showing The Sound of Music! Classic!!!

can't believe i watched tt show more than 20years ago!!! *gasp* im OLD!!!!

and i can't believe tt was Julie Andrews back then!!! oh my gosh....! she was actually quite pretty! *tinks of her in The Princess Diaries* hmmm.... well, i guess she still looks pretty good now eh? still really charming... wrinkles and all... heeee!

i also can't believe i still remember every song and dialogue of the movie after all this time!!! unbelievable!!! i couldn't stop humming to My Favorite Things and Do-Re-Mi! hahahah! felt like a kid all over again! :)

does it happen to you too? like, you watched something AGES ago.... and then never watch it for AGES....... then one fine day, it pops up on telly, and you seem to remember every single dialogue, every single scene..... hahahah! amazing!! it sure din feel like i watched tt movie 20 years ago..... felt like yesterday!

*mega sigh*

the movie has already celebrated its 40th anniversary.... tt means the actors and actresses must be in their.... 60s, 70s? well, 50s at least...! erm..... all they all still...... alive?? >.<>
...
......
*take 5... gg to google "The Sound of Music"......*
...
......
CHECK TIS OUT
the "kids" are still around! well..... all grown up now.... but yea! all still here!!! wow!

you know, its amazing how some of these "childhood" stuff you did or watched just stays wiv you forever? i guess The Sound of Music is just one of those things for me...... i mean, i might not watch the movie like once a year anymore, or listen to Do-Re-Mi for tt matter (HA!), but it'll probably just be one of those things tt'll always bring back fond memories of childhood! - watching it wiv my sistas, singing those songs together before bedtime in the room we 3 shared (Ting missed out man...... =P), geez.... nostalgia.......

yOu 'liL bRat!!!

Fri 080906 2:43pm sunny (BUT VERY WINDY!!!)
task on hand includes prep for Tourism Destination Marketing Alliance presentation, journal article review, Kings Cross Partnership research and BCEP Brick readings... all due Mon!!!
mood is NO GOOD! practically channelled all my brain power to the above-mentioned assignments. was so looking forward to a quiet day of assignment prep.s
...
......
BUT THE LIL BRAT UPSTAIRS IS HAVING A MINI OLYMPICS IN THEIR APARTMENT!!!!!!
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*tearing my hair out!*
i tell 'ya the kid upstairs has been STOMPING AROUND (yes! STOMPING! boom-boom-boom-boooooooom.........!!) for the past 2 hours!!!
Gawd! i've seen the kids upstairs... they're girls! and they're tiny! How the hell does lil girls make SO MUCH NOISE huh? huh???
There she (they? i wonder if the older one is home frm sch yet...) goes again!!!
STOMP-STOMP-STOMP BOOM-BOOM-BOOM
AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh and in case you think im over-reacting? this aint the 1st time they decide to hold their own olympics indoors ok! happens almost every freaking day!!! they were holding nite marathons till 10pm yesterday!!! *voice dripping wiv sarcasim*
I HATE NOTI CHILDREN! I HATE BRATTY KIDS! I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND CHILDREN TODAY! BRATS! SPOILT! INCONSIDERATE! SELFISH! BRATS BRATS BRATS!!!!!!!! WHY CANT ALL KIDS BE ANGELS LIKE CLAIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HUH!!!!!!!!

kWon SanG wOo

***SEPTEMBER '06 POSTER BOY***

sOooooo yummy-licious!!! *swoon*

i've been staring at him (lappie wallpaper la... duh!) for the past 20mins.... brain dead... cant seem to start on my Tourism Destination Marketing Alliance presentation slides... ha!!

and i watched the interview wiv Suzanne Jung on Prime Time Morning over the Net... oh my Gawd he is sOoooo SOoooo SoooOo charming!! ^^

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ok, i gotta stop daydreaming and drooling over my journal article =P

WeatHer fOreCast - wiNdy wiv Rain ><

yea.... horrible weather we're getting tdy... the rains and winds started sometime VERY EARLY tis morning (just past 2400hrs =P) and hasn't stopped till now!!!!! gosh! you can hear the wind howling outside now, and throughout the nite my windows were just rattling away! and the constant rumbling of the thunder....... >.<>

check out wat the winds did to the trees and garbage bins outside:-

stRawBerriES and cReaM

... ha! not quite! its not cream i had, it was SKI yogurt! yum!

punnet of strawberries $2.98
SKI Divine $3.98
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look on my contented face after consuming tt - priceless

hahahaha! i m TOO lame ^^

Mid-teRms...

*苦笑*

Am i hardworking or wat?! ha! check out all those notes i prepared today... Destination Marketing mid-term tml.... Ugh! 6 lectures, 6 text chapters, 6 weeks worth of readings... Wat is the Butler Sequence? wat is tourism strategic development process? wat is the Diffusion on Innovation Theory? wat is tourism trade intermediaries purchase process? blah blah blah blah BLAH!!!

my arms are so aching frm preparing these notes >.<

and im starved! but i so don't feel like cooking tonite... maybe i'll just have tt punnet of strawberries wiv SKI yogurt! yummy!

still cnt believe i started studying at 9am tdy and din stop till now.... wat an achievement! haha! well.... at least for me tt's a pretty big thing =P

BibLe stUdY

Daniel 4 & 5

Yesterday's bible readings reminded me
- not to take my parents for granted
- not to take my sisters for granted
- not to take my friends for granted
- not to take everything i have now for granted
- not to take God for granted!
Because everyone and everything i have now, are God's gifts and blessings to me. And at anytime, anyone or anything He deems fit to be taken from me, shall be and can be taken.

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The question, "when we think of God, which comes first - love or fear?" was brought up.

I never really tot about it... i've always tot - God loves us so much, so of cos i love Him too! And its bcos i noe He's God, and His powers and the wonders He can do and has given us are so great, tt i fear Him too.
Makes sense? hmmm.....



*deep tots*

mOre piCs of mY rOom

there! pics of my room ^^

nothing fancy really... hmmm..... i think it needs a 'lil something... maybe a huge jigsaw puzzle on the walls, a couple of beanbags, a mish-mash of colors, more magazines...?? haa! when i moved in tis place was all white and beige!! >.< i could use a hand in the home reno' / deco' department.... ha!